It's been what? three weeks since my run, and thus three weeks since I posted about the half marathon. Those three weeks I have been under quite the RA attack. Feet, hands, fatigue, everything. I have no earthly idea if a half marathon induced this sort of pain or what.
This is my fifth week on Enbrel, and the pain is only getting worse and it's seeming to spread. Got a new RA related pain in my achilles/ankle area and the very top of the foot, to go along with the continuing and worsening pain in my feet, toes, hands, and wrists.
Besides that pain, I thought it a good idea to run in a 5 mile race this past Saturday (insert some groaning). Finished fourth in my age group and ran at about a 7:30 min/mile pace.
It's becoming increasingly hard for me to maintain a grasp on physical objects, most notably the newspaper. I have started taking the bus (for a multitude of reasons including gas prices and the fact that my feet and hands don't appreciate maneuvering a stick shift jeep wrangler in and out of traffic for up to two hours a day) and its becoming hard to hold on to the newspaper, as my fingers shake and I begin to lose feeling in them and the paper suddenly falls out. Also my hands continue to get colder while indoors, especially at work where I'm supposed to be typing all day (that is becoming another issue).
The frustrating part lies in a couple things, one: I've found no pattern whatsoever to the pain, food wise, exercise wise, sleep wise, nothing; two: its spreading and getting worse. I know Enbrel is supposed to take a while for it to really go into effect, but what constitutes "a while?"
I really am motivated, from a competitive standpoint, to continue running and train for another half marathon, or a triathlon, but the RA keeps putting those ambitions in check the past couple weeks. If anyone has any recollections as to how long it took there Enbrel (or whatever else was prescribed) to kick in, it would be greatly appreciated.
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Monday, March 26, 2012
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Half Marathon 3-4-12
Half marathon complete.
The week leading up to the half marathon, my feet and hands were killing me, almost as if my RA was like "hey buddy, I know what you're trying to do, and I'm not a fan." I didn't run at all the last week and a half, because I just wanted to be in the least amount of pain to start the race as possible.
So half marathon morning, up at 4, shower, get ready, put on my sweet running shirt provided by the Arthritis National Research Foundation, my calf sleeves, and shoes and out the door we go.
Arrive in South Beach, and then it starts to hit me, "holy **** I'm about to put this body thru 13 miles of running." Not a comforting start when you realize you still have 2 hours of non stop running ahead of you in 80 degree weather.
Gun goes off, here goes nothing. My initial thought is, my i pod will be my savior I hope, so lets try and delay starting the music as long as possible. I delay it up to the point where I'm halfway across the first main bridge/causeway. So far no pain. My hope was for the foot RA pain to kick in big time at around mile 7, and then powering thru the last 6 knowing I was over halfway there. That plan failed. First RA foot pain came at about mile 3.6. Forget about it, keep concentrating on the surroundings. Also helped that I had my friend running with me the entire time, so whenever the pain got bad, just start talking garbled non sense to him to distract me.
Mile 6 - first time I go for a hydrating station, small problem, I didn't realize that the first group of liquids being given out is gatorade, take that cup and splash it on my face and into my eyes. That stings. Oops. Soon after that, BOOM! now were in some RA pain. Shooting pain from bottom of my feet out through my toes. Continue to concentrate on scenery. This pain continues until about mile 11.
At mile 11 comes the worst RA foot pain I have ever experienced. Nothing quite like it, and hurt so much my feet tingle thinking about it. Every step was painful, and it required a lot of convincing and tricking myself to not stop running. One of those tricks was that if I did stop running, there'd be no shot of my body starting back up again. The other, "you've ran 11 miles, how pissed you gonna be if you walk for a little?"To say that my pace slowed down during this moment, would be a drastic understatement. Also, my hands hurt, basically any place RA has spread to, was killing me. Probably because my body was in high gear, anti-inflammatories were out, and everything was under attack.
As I got myself a half mile from the finish line, I realized I had a shot of getting under 2 hours. So, in spite of what my body was telling me, I booked it, and man did that hurt. Felt like my feet were gonna just shatter at some point. Crossed finish line, just missed the 2 hour mark by about 15 20 seconds. Maybe got 10 feet beyond the finish line before I basically had to stop and prevent myself from toppling over onto the ground, and just stood there for a couple minutes before I felt my body could move again. Waited for Carlota, who was also sporting an Arthritis Research jersey, to finish.
To say I was in pain the next day (yesterday) would be putting it lightly. Barely could walk, exhausted, everything hurting. But it was damn worth it. Shot of Enbrel last night, and was shortly asleep. Feeling much less exhausted today, but man does everything still hurt.
All in all, it hurt. It hurt a lot, excruciating at the end. But it was so definitely worth it. Some might say this is stupid and all your doing is hurting your body, I don't know. I do know that even if it hurting my body, I don't wanna just sit here, while I'm still able to do some of these things, and watch time pass by. If this does hurt my body, and my body will hurt more eventually anyway, then at least I got something out of the pain.
Now onto the next race...
The week leading up to the half marathon, my feet and hands were killing me, almost as if my RA was like "hey buddy, I know what you're trying to do, and I'm not a fan." I didn't run at all the last week and a half, because I just wanted to be in the least amount of pain to start the race as possible.
So half marathon morning, up at 4, shower, get ready, put on my sweet running shirt provided by the Arthritis National Research Foundation, my calf sleeves, and shoes and out the door we go.
Arrive in South Beach, and then it starts to hit me, "holy **** I'm about to put this body thru 13 miles of running." Not a comforting start when you realize you still have 2 hours of non stop running ahead of you in 80 degree weather.
Gun goes off, here goes nothing. My initial thought is, my i pod will be my savior I hope, so lets try and delay starting the music as long as possible. I delay it up to the point where I'm halfway across the first main bridge/causeway. So far no pain. My hope was for the foot RA pain to kick in big time at around mile 7, and then powering thru the last 6 knowing I was over halfway there. That plan failed. First RA foot pain came at about mile 3.6. Forget about it, keep concentrating on the surroundings. Also helped that I had my friend running with me the entire time, so whenever the pain got bad, just start talking garbled non sense to him to distract me.
Mile 6 - first time I go for a hydrating station, small problem, I didn't realize that the first group of liquids being given out is gatorade, take that cup and splash it on my face and into my eyes. That stings. Oops. Soon after that, BOOM! now were in some RA pain. Shooting pain from bottom of my feet out through my toes. Continue to concentrate on scenery. This pain continues until about mile 11.
At mile 11 comes the worst RA foot pain I have ever experienced. Nothing quite like it, and hurt so much my feet tingle thinking about it. Every step was painful, and it required a lot of convincing and tricking myself to not stop running. One of those tricks was that if I did stop running, there'd be no shot of my body starting back up again. The other, "you've ran 11 miles, how pissed you gonna be if you walk for a little?"To say that my pace slowed down during this moment, would be a drastic understatement. Also, my hands hurt, basically any place RA has spread to, was killing me. Probably because my body was in high gear, anti-inflammatories were out, and everything was under attack.
As I got myself a half mile from the finish line, I realized I had a shot of getting under 2 hours. So, in spite of what my body was telling me, I booked it, and man did that hurt. Felt like my feet were gonna just shatter at some point. Crossed finish line, just missed the 2 hour mark by about 15 20 seconds. Maybe got 10 feet beyond the finish line before I basically had to stop and prevent myself from toppling over onto the ground, and just stood there for a couple minutes before I felt my body could move again. Waited for Carlota, who was also sporting an Arthritis Research jersey, to finish.
To say I was in pain the next day (yesterday) would be putting it lightly. Barely could walk, exhausted, everything hurting. But it was damn worth it. Shot of Enbrel last night, and was shortly asleep. Feeling much less exhausted today, but man does everything still hurt.
All in all, it hurt. It hurt a lot, excruciating at the end. But it was so definitely worth it. Some might say this is stupid and all your doing is hurting your body, I don't know. I do know that even if it hurting my body, I don't wanna just sit here, while I'm still able to do some of these things, and watch time pass by. If this does hurt my body, and my body will hurt more eventually anyway, then at least I got something out of the pain.
Now onto the next race...
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
"Can I Run with Rheumatoid Arthritis?"
Here is a link I found at Runner'sWorld.com, where a reader asks about running with rheumatoid arthritis.
http://sportsdoc.runnersworld.com/2011/01/can-i-run-with-rheumatoid-arthritis.html
I agree with a lot of what he said, in my limited experience so far, and listening to your body is a key to not overdoing yourself (like I did trying to train for the ING). So far, it's taken my body a solid couple days to recover from a run. The pain in my feet is still heightened since my run on Saturday morning (I say "heightened" because the pain never really seems to "go away"). The pain in my hands also seems to be "heightened" whenever I get my body up into a frenzied state like a 9 mile run can cause.
I did discuss my "physical regimen" with my rheumatologist who said to cut running out altogether, which clearly I have not done. Just wondering what anyone else thought? I know some people respond on here or on twitter or thru e-mail, so whichever works for you.
http://sportsdoc.runnersworld.com/2011/01/can-i-run-with-rheumatoid-arthritis.html
I agree with a lot of what he said, in my limited experience so far, and listening to your body is a key to not overdoing yourself (like I did trying to train for the ING). So far, it's taken my body a solid couple days to recover from a run. The pain in my feet is still heightened since my run on Saturday morning (I say "heightened" because the pain never really seems to "go away"). The pain in my hands also seems to be "heightened" whenever I get my body up into a frenzied state like a 9 mile run can cause.
I did discuss my "physical regimen" with my rheumatologist who said to cut running out altogether, which clearly I have not done. Just wondering what anyone else thought? I know some people respond on here or on twitter or thru e-mail, so whichever works for you.
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Saturday Morning 9-Miler
So the "Running/RA Hangover" lasted all week from last Sunday's 6 mile adventure, including yesterdays weird tingling sensation I had in my feet for a good while. Nevertheless, I strapped on the shoes this morning and headed out for an 8 mile run. To say that my pace was slow to begin with would be an understatement. Before the RA made its way to my feet some months ago, I would run about an 8 minute per mile pace. Thru the first 4 or so miles today, 10 minutes a mile, yikes.
After that time my pace picked up to about a 9 minute mile pace, not sure why, and it eventually sunk back down to the 10 minute mark.
The RA pain kicked in at around mile marker 4.72, which is right around where it was last time, and where it has been every single time I've ran long distance. There has to be something to this, whether its my body triggering it or my form getting thrown off, something has to be happening.
I can continue to run with the pain, my concern is this: When I get the RA pain at mile 4.72, and I'm running 6 or 8 miles, I can convince myself to power thru it, or forget about it, because I'm over halfway done. What happens if I'm at mile 4.5 and the pain hits me, and I realize I have to run about 3x what I just did. We shall see. Maybe a new goal is to try and delay the RA pain till mile 6 or 7, and do that by figuring out whats triggering it.
So I took a wrong turn at one point and ended up a little farther away then I had anticipated, so I sucked it up and made it a 9 mile run. In hindsight, 8 would have been just fine, because as soon as I hit 8, my body basically shut down and I shuffled my way thru the last mile or so. Feet aching, hips aching, I'm sure it wasn't a pretty sight to the people driving by.
Now we await the RA hangover, and we'll see where this takes me. During the week this week I didn't do much but lift and play kickball and dodgeball, running seemed out of the question as did that spin class I keep telling myself I want to go to.
So 6 last week, 9 this week, hopefully 11 next weekend, and then the Half the following weekend. Thanks for reading!
After that time my pace picked up to about a 9 minute mile pace, not sure why, and it eventually sunk back down to the 10 minute mark.
The RA pain kicked in at around mile marker 4.72, which is right around where it was last time, and where it has been every single time I've ran long distance. There has to be something to this, whether its my body triggering it or my form getting thrown off, something has to be happening.
I can continue to run with the pain, my concern is this: When I get the RA pain at mile 4.72, and I'm running 6 or 8 miles, I can convince myself to power thru it, or forget about it, because I'm over halfway done. What happens if I'm at mile 4.5 and the pain hits me, and I realize I have to run about 3x what I just did. We shall see. Maybe a new goal is to try and delay the RA pain till mile 6 or 7, and do that by figuring out whats triggering it.
So I took a wrong turn at one point and ended up a little farther away then I had anticipated, so I sucked it up and made it a 9 mile run. In hindsight, 8 would have been just fine, because as soon as I hit 8, my body basically shut down and I shuffled my way thru the last mile or so. Feet aching, hips aching, I'm sure it wasn't a pretty sight to the people driving by.
Now we await the RA hangover, and we'll see where this takes me. During the week this week I didn't do much but lift and play kickball and dodgeball, running seemed out of the question as did that spin class I keep telling myself I want to go to.
So 6 last week, 9 this week, hopefully 11 next weekend, and then the Half the following weekend. Thanks for reading!
Monday, January 30, 2012
Let's Try This Again 1-30-12
Alright. So my feet betrayed me and made the decision for me that after some training, I wasn't running in the ING Half this past weekend. However, gonna give it another shot (with a little more careful training) for the Miami Beach Half Marathon that is in March. I'll try and give daily blog updates, or every other day, this time. I became a bit frustrated with the whole process recently and didn't feel like writing about the fact that I couldn't run. This time I'll try and be much more consistent about my training, and hopefully it's completion.
Miami Beach Half Marathon: just over a month away. March 4, 2012.
Miami Beach Half Marathon: just over a month away. March 4, 2012.
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
No Half
As a result of the pain that won't go away, the Enbrel that has yet to come, the fatigue I feel, and the expected effect the half will have on my body, and the combination of the above and their effect on my training, I am not running the half marathon. These things happen I suppose. Thanks to anyone who commented.
Monday, January 9, 2012
Post 8-miler 1/9/12
Yesterday I did an 8 mile run. Felt fine up until about the 5.5 mile mark where I started to feel joint pain in my toes that continued basically till the run was over. With the half-marathon less than three weeks away, the run was necessary if I was going to run in the ING Half. The pace was really, really slow but I did that on purpose with hopes it wouldn't put as much pressure on my joints.
After the run, shortly afterward, I felt fine actually with no noticeable "RAD" pain anywhere. Then at about 630, I felt the joint pain onslaught come on. It goes straight from my arches out thru my toes. It's a pain I've been trying to figure out how to accurately describe but have yet to do so. It almost feels like theres a little keyhole inside my arch, and someone is twisting it to expand my feet out thru my skin, very strange. The pain prevented me from going to sleep exactly when I wanted to.
Today, insanely exhausted, surely from a combination of not as much sleep as usual and the RAD. The feet hurt just as much as yesterday, but what is weird is how much more my hands hurt today. Maybe all the inflammation from running not only affects my feet but my hands as well, because they are in full throttle mode today.
Tomorrow will be a gym day and then a 4 mile run on Wednesday as the race gets closer.
No Enbrel shot this weekend as my insurance has yet to approve of the Enbrel.
P.S.: Using the term "RAD" instead of RA to show support of those who are rightly seeking to change the name of the disease.
After the run, shortly afterward, I felt fine actually with no noticeable "RAD" pain anywhere. Then at about 630, I felt the joint pain onslaught come on. It goes straight from my arches out thru my toes. It's a pain I've been trying to figure out how to accurately describe but have yet to do so. It almost feels like theres a little keyhole inside my arch, and someone is twisting it to expand my feet out thru my skin, very strange. The pain prevented me from going to sleep exactly when I wanted to.
Today, insanely exhausted, surely from a combination of not as much sleep as usual and the RAD. The feet hurt just as much as yesterday, but what is weird is how much more my hands hurt today. Maybe all the inflammation from running not only affects my feet but my hands as well, because they are in full throttle mode today.
Tomorrow will be a gym day and then a 4 mile run on Wednesday as the race gets closer.
No Enbrel shot this weekend as my insurance has yet to approve of the Enbrel.
P.S.: Using the term "RAD" instead of RA to show support of those who are rightly seeking to change the name of the disease.
Friday, January 6, 2012
End of the Week 1-6-12
So my week started off with a run on monday and then some pain on Tuesday. The peak of the pain hit Wednesday and Thursday. Wednesday night the pain in my feet hurt so much I nearly pulled over on my way home from work. Then, at about 1:30 a.m. the pain woke me up and kept me up for the next 2 to 3 hours. A pain that made me want to yell and smash my arches with a hammer.
Last night's was a little different, it was painful and then thru the first hour of me trying to go to sleep it was more of a "tingle" then anything, like a bunch of little needles were hitting me, almost like my feet were asleep.
I had tweeted out that my hands at one point were two distinctly different temperatures, with one extremely freezing even to touch, and the other perfectly normal. Then when the freezing went away, some color rushed back into the hand and it felt like a little bit of a blood rush and warm. Very strange. @tlmpsy suggested it might be Reynaud's, which I've looked into a little bit and suppose I should bring up to my rheum next time.
Been nauseous and on the verge of throwing up all week, and it hasn't really subsided. Pain in the hands still there to its usual tremendous effect as well as the fatigue.
Running has not happened since monday despite my best intentions, I hope to go for a longer run on Saturday, despite some (maybe wisely) suggesting I don't run. But I'm still sticking with route #2 for the time being, and may end up regretting it, but that's the point of the blog so we will see. Hope everyone has a good weekend.
Last night's was a little different, it was painful and then thru the first hour of me trying to go to sleep it was more of a "tingle" then anything, like a bunch of little needles were hitting me, almost like my feet were asleep.
I had tweeted out that my hands at one point were two distinctly different temperatures, with one extremely freezing even to touch, and the other perfectly normal. Then when the freezing went away, some color rushed back into the hand and it felt like a little bit of a blood rush and warm. Very strange. @tlmpsy suggested it might be Reynaud's, which I've looked into a little bit and suppose I should bring up to my rheum next time.
Been nauseous and on the verge of throwing up all week, and it hasn't really subsided. Pain in the hands still there to its usual tremendous effect as well as the fatigue.
Running has not happened since monday despite my best intentions, I hope to go for a longer run on Saturday, despite some (maybe wisely) suggesting I don't run. But I'm still sticking with route #2 for the time being, and may end up regretting it, but that's the point of the blog so we will see. Hope everyone has a good weekend.
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Rheum Appt 1/3/12
So had an appointment with my Rheumatologist on Friday to discuss the ever-growing list problems with me. He said it was all signs that my RA was progressing faster than he had thought it would, and that it was moving pretty aggressively, as I was having pain not just in my hands and arms, but in my back, teeth/jaw, and feet. He kept me on the oral methotrexate, despite my stomach issues, and put me on Enbrel injections, which should clear insurance by later this week.
1. Glad it's nothing else.
2. Wasn't a fan of the "wow" look when I told him what was going on.
He also hit me with the "no more running" thing for the first time. Now I had a feeling something like this was coming, especially since I had two episodes of feet pain recently, but still stung a little. As one can see by the title of this blog, I enjoy running, have been doing it for years, and was really looking forward to making some sort of "hobby/lifestyle" out of it by running half/full marathons, trail runs, and triathlons hopefully at some point. So, my dilemma the entire weekend has been between two routes to take:
1. Listen to the Dr., don't run, change my exercising to better accommodate my RA so I can eliminate as much pain as possible (if possible).
2. "**** it I'm gonna run, not gonna let RA stop me", that whole thing. It was a constant battle all weekend.
(thanks for the responses from those on twitter)
Monday, I chose route #2. I am now paying for route #2 (I think). Went for a 4 mile run, since the half-marathon is 26 days away, I NEEDED to run, NEEDED to. It was new shoes that I had walked around with for a while, Aasics, so they are good running shoes. Feet hurt during the run, and I was so unbelievably much slower than my usual pace that I didn't even wanna time the damn thing on my watch. The pain during the run? nothing in comparison to the pain from last night thru the entire day today. Three things I noticed during the day today:
1. First time it's "hurt" to get out of bed.
2. First time this foot joint pain, has stung so much to the point where I have to try and not let out an audible groan/shreek/yell at work (they still don't know I have RA, and being a "writer" and all I'm not sure how this is gonna work).
3. Hand pain is just crazy, hand, wrist, elbow, wow.
He said its moving aggressively so that's just the way it is, or maybe it was my run, or maybe it's the unusually cold weather in Miami, but man is it a bummer to actually feel a disease progressing inside of u, where pain is one place one day, two places the next day.
Gonna hope to try spinning tomorrow morning (I hope no pain getting out of bed), the half is the 29th of January, gotta do something or it's not happening.
P.S.
I know there are a lot out there who have it worse than me, so I hope no one takes this blog offensive or inconsiderate of their condition.
1. Glad it's nothing else.
2. Wasn't a fan of the "wow" look when I told him what was going on.
He also hit me with the "no more running" thing for the first time. Now I had a feeling something like this was coming, especially since I had two episodes of feet pain recently, but still stung a little. As one can see by the title of this blog, I enjoy running, have been doing it for years, and was really looking forward to making some sort of "hobby/lifestyle" out of it by running half/full marathons, trail runs, and triathlons hopefully at some point. So, my dilemma the entire weekend has been between two routes to take:
1. Listen to the Dr., don't run, change my exercising to better accommodate my RA so I can eliminate as much pain as possible (if possible).
2. "**** it I'm gonna run, not gonna let RA stop me", that whole thing. It was a constant battle all weekend.
(thanks for the responses from those on twitter)
Monday, I chose route #2. I am now paying for route #2 (I think). Went for a 4 mile run, since the half-marathon is 26 days away, I NEEDED to run, NEEDED to. It was new shoes that I had walked around with for a while, Aasics, so they are good running shoes. Feet hurt during the run, and I was so unbelievably much slower than my usual pace that I didn't even wanna time the damn thing on my watch. The pain during the run? nothing in comparison to the pain from last night thru the entire day today. Three things I noticed during the day today:
1. First time it's "hurt" to get out of bed.
2. First time this foot joint pain, has stung so much to the point where I have to try and not let out an audible groan/shreek/yell at work (they still don't know I have RA, and being a "writer" and all I'm not sure how this is gonna work).
3. Hand pain is just crazy, hand, wrist, elbow, wow.
He said its moving aggressively so that's just the way it is, or maybe it was my run, or maybe it's the unusually cold weather in Miami, but man is it a bummer to actually feel a disease progressing inside of u, where pain is one place one day, two places the next day.
Gonna hope to try spinning tomorrow morning (I hope no pain getting out of bed), the half is the 29th of January, gotta do something or it's not happening.
P.S.
I know there are a lot out there who have it worse than me, so I hope no one takes this blog offensive or inconsiderate of their condition.
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Kyle feat. T-Pain (teeth pain) 12/29
Going on about the 4th straight week where I've been exhausted all day and making concerted efforts not to fall asleep at work, despite getting plenty of sleep. The "flare" is apparently still ongoing, with more pain in the feet. The new pain symptom is resting itself in the teeth. My teeth hurt a lot, not just one tooth, all of them. I want to thank everyone who responded to my question about their experience with teeth pain and RA, looks like I'm going to have to get a mouth guard.
Despite this feeling of exhaustion and the flare still ongoing, I couldn't rest anymore and I had to run. A short run, and didn't time it because I didn't wan't to get frustrated. Legs felt very sore when running but I was just so sick of not doing anything, I felt gross. Going for another run, a bit longer, tonight or tomorrow. It's getting so close to the half-marathon date that I can't really not run, no matter how tired or in pain I am, unless I just don't wanna do the race. Not running the race has sort of become not an option for me, because my fear is that the way this thing is progressing I'm not sure how many opportunities I'm gonna get to run in a half-marathon (hopefully more, but not gonna take it for granted). I got new running shoes, with more support and cushion so maybe that'll help on the joints.
I am supposed to be running 8 miles this weekend, but have given up on the "traditional" training route that everyone else tries for half marathons, and just trying to ensure I can make it 13 miles by the last weekend in January for the race.
All of the other symptoms remain the same with headaches/stomach aches that come and go. Tomorrow is my first appointment in two months with my rheumatologist, and the first appointment since the pretty dramatic increase in symptoms. I've got a list of all the pain and what not I've been feeling, and finally getting the cojones to tell him we're not gonna up my methotrexate and just see what happens, I need something more than just that.
I know I've been super erratic with blogposts, but sometimes I'm just not in the mood to talk about all of it and kinda just wish it would go away. Other times I'm imagining not everyone else wants to read about it, not exactly uplifting material. Hopefully I'll be more on top of it from now on.
P.S. - the "Show Us Your Hands" collage is fantastic for those who haven't seen it, and am kind of embarrassed that I haven't submitted my hands but my girlfriend has, and I'm the one with the RA. That will be my #1 priority this weekend.
Despite this feeling of exhaustion and the flare still ongoing, I couldn't rest anymore and I had to run. A short run, and didn't time it because I didn't wan't to get frustrated. Legs felt very sore when running but I was just so sick of not doing anything, I felt gross. Going for another run, a bit longer, tonight or tomorrow. It's getting so close to the half-marathon date that I can't really not run, no matter how tired or in pain I am, unless I just don't wanna do the race. Not running the race has sort of become not an option for me, because my fear is that the way this thing is progressing I'm not sure how many opportunities I'm gonna get to run in a half-marathon (hopefully more, but not gonna take it for granted). I got new running shoes, with more support and cushion so maybe that'll help on the joints.
I am supposed to be running 8 miles this weekend, but have given up on the "traditional" training route that everyone else tries for half marathons, and just trying to ensure I can make it 13 miles by the last weekend in January for the race.
All of the other symptoms remain the same with headaches/stomach aches that come and go. Tomorrow is my first appointment in two months with my rheumatologist, and the first appointment since the pretty dramatic increase in symptoms. I've got a list of all the pain and what not I've been feeling, and finally getting the cojones to tell him we're not gonna up my methotrexate and just see what happens, I need something more than just that.
I know I've been super erratic with blogposts, but sometimes I'm just not in the mood to talk about all of it and kinda just wish it would go away. Other times I'm imagining not everyone else wants to read about it, not exactly uplifting material. Hopefully I'll be more on top of it from now on.
P.S. - the "Show Us Your Hands" collage is fantastic for those who haven't seen it, and am kind of embarrassed that I haven't submitted my hands but my girlfriend has, and I'm the one with the RA. That will be my #1 priority this weekend.
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